Bet me

i haven't posted in over 2 months. i am now b/c it's 8:19 in the morning and i'm trying to keep myself awake.

and all i'm gonna write is YAY CANADA!!!!!! 3 weeks!!!

canada for the second half of the summer, eh?

brian donald i miss you. come visit me soon????

I will write more later when i have time.

But for now I will just say that Spring Break was the best time of my life.

i like to live in the past. go nelly!!

i don't really know what i am anymore.

Today I went to the mattress store with josh. The salesman referred to me as Josh's wife. HILArious.

just the thought of not being able to have kids makes me want to die

Ahhh updates. This one is the real deal.

Tuesday went to the bar for Ted's 21st birthday!!!! Absolutely amazing. Enjoyed like 4 shots of tequilla and 2 shots of jack. I hate being drunk and buying ppl stuff. Oh well, I saw Brian and Drew there and bought Brian some Jack. Saw Ally from calc and eric the neighbor. Got more shots! Walked home w/ Rebec and Michelle. It was really fun.

Wednesday I went to the Blue Note to see Dave's band play. I'm in love with the lead singer. Got crazy rock and roll-like. And then my sister Jess met us there!!

Thursday was an AMAZING feast and alot of relatives. I wish I could relive that meal everyday of my life without gaining weight. hahhaha.

Friday I went to Adam's, a friend of KRisti's. Played lots of beer pong and drank brandy. And that's it. haha

Saturday I came back to school and hung out w/ Josh. We watched Click and I cried. Hahah and I ate more leftovers mmmmmm.

Today I returned some stuff at the store, ate subway, and now I'm here. I hate work. I miss Thanksgiving!!!!!!!!!!!

i had a bad dream that i failed all my classes. i hope it's not true. i love what happened before i dreamt that tho. mmmmmmmmm k

i don't think i'm going to love basketball as much this year.

by the supremes.


CHORUS:
Set me free, why don'tcha, babe?
Get out of my life, why don'tcha, babe?
'Cause you don't really love me
You just keep me hangin' on
You don't really need me
But you keep me hangin' on

Why do you keep a-comin' around
Playin' with my heart?
Why don'tcha get out of my life
And let me make a new start?
Let me get over you
The way you've gotten over me
Hey

CHORUS

You say although we broke up,
You still wanna be just friends
But how can we still be friends
When seein' you only breaks my heart again?

And there ain't nothin' I can do about it.

CHORUS

You claim you still care for me
But your heart and soul needs to be free
Now that you've got your freedom,
You wanna still hold onto me
You don't want me for yourself
So, let me find somebody else
Hey hey

Why don'tcha be a man about it
And set me free?
Now, you don't care a thing about me
You're just using me
Go on, get out, get out of my life
And let me sleep at night
Please!

'Cause you don't really love me
You just keep me hangin' on

So Friday we had a party. Fun times. I looked like a hot slut. Always a good time.

Until the next morning...
I noticed 22 bucks missing from my purse. "Fuck I'm a dumb drunk" is what I thought. Then I go upstairs and see the window screen laying on the back porch, the window open, and the back door unlocked. "Man people got STUPID last night after I went to bed" I thought. Woke up and my door was open. "Someone else prolly checked on me last night" I thought. Brian came here for the game and we watched a movie in my room before we headed out. I looked over to my shelf and my bowl of about 60 bucks in change was gone. FUCK! It all came together. In that bowl was also a spare car key of mine. I called my roomates crying and went to the game. My mom and sister came up to take us out to dinner after the game. We took a fun trip to the police station to file a report. Hot cop. Nonetheless. Apparently more than one townhouse had been broken into. And our neighbors chased the guy out. Tall and black (not Shawn). lol. So every night I lock my door praying to God no one comes in. I mean, it was when I was THERE! And also praying my car is there.

I'm trying not to think about it but you can't help but have something like that shake you up a little. Ahhhhh.

being single sucks. it's been a little over a month. anyone know any hot buff tall men? send them my way g.

i can't take this anymore i want to go home for good. there is no way i can feel better about this because the pain is too great. i want to die.

I have officially decided that I will never be able to marry or even date a man who likes to get beligerant wasted. I don't even really like a guy that parties a lot. People are hurtful when they are drunk and that's not what I want.

I still like Josh. Yep. We still hang out and it's just what I need to get over him right now. I think I am understanding more why we can't be together. It sucks because I know he is great and will make someone happy someday, but I guess it's just not me right now.

I still get sad about it. But let me, I'm ok.

Happy Sunday. I've decided to do absolutely nothing today. Except Laundry. and physics? and cartoons.

I need to find some way to get over this breakup. seriously. I can't "go out". Because everytime I drink that is when I get the worst. Example: every burgerama. harpers. tailgate...fuck dude i had to miss the Notre Dame game. I think my parents hate me, as well as my entire family. I know for a fact that I'm isolating my friends. I dont want to bug them anymore, nor do I like it when people worry about me. I'd rather just be by myself and either be happy or be sad.

I just need someone in my life. You know?

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

It's been 9 days..... and it's not any easier.

Thanks for trying.

i am officially depressed. fuck everything. i want to give up.

kristi
i know u just called like a half hour ago. ha.

but i need you. and i miss you. i want it to be today DAY. :(